I blame society for telling me to use drugs. I went along with it to fit in. I don’t care about fitting in anymore, but I don’t think it was my fault for partaking given the social atmosphere. So why do I have to suffer these dreams that torment me about it? Do I have unresolved trauma related to it or some shit?
PS. I am straight edge now, I haven’t used drugs in a long time and don’t think about them while I’m awake at all. I prefer to be sober minded. The only part they play in my life is in occasional dreams apparently, which are usually negative and unpleasant.
Dreams about drinking, especially when you dislike alcohol, can symbolize a feeling of being overwhelmed or out of control in your waking life. It might reflect a situation where you feel pressured to engage in something that doesn’t align with your values or that you’re uncomfortable with. The “feeling like crap” afterward could indicate regret, guilt, or dissatisfaction with going along with something you didn’t truly want to do. It may also suggest you’re dealing with stress or emotions that need addressing but you’re unsure how to cope. Have you been facing any situations recently where you felt pushed into something you didn’t want to do?
That could all be true, but I should clarify when I said I felt like crap I meant physically (mentally as well, sure). As in, how you feel if you’re really sick and unwell. Nausea, queaziness, headache, pain, lightheaded, etc.
Maybe your brain gave your body a hangover, I once got sick from reading a very vivid description of how a sinus infection starts. Like reading it convinced my body it was happening. The only sinus infection I have ever had. Or maybe you were already getting sick so your mind associated the feeling with drinking. Mind and body are so connected.
Hope you are feeling better now.