Been on a Notesnook kick myself

Aaaaaa. I started Estradiol Valerate injections Wednesday and I’m every emotion at once. My first time giving myself a dose went better than anticipated, being terrified of needles and such. Scared for the future, if I can financially maintain the cost of the medication and if the fascist state government here leaves medicare coverage for my needs alone. I’m also debating whether or not to give up writing for some time. I’m not very productive due to depression and brain fog. Idk.

Hope everyone gets through the week safe and sound.

I had to deal with insurance BS for my bipolar medication and was off of them for three days. Wasn’t so great but I’m medicated again, thankfully. Waiting for when me and my gf can move in together; certain financial issues are holding us back but its nice getting to spend time with her on the weekends.

Eh. Been trying to get more writing done, its going okay, but could be better. Trying not to constantly overthink about evil bastards in political power in my state further attacking trans people like me. Just trying to survive.

I hope OP feels better and that everyone has a nice day for a change.

I hand write and type in pretty equal tandem. Writing poetry oftentimes, I feel better about drafting things on scratch paper (or at least brainstorming) before seeing how it appears in type/print. Other times, I might be at my laptop with an idea that comes to mind that’s easier to type out in my text editor first. I find my own dynamic very fluid and I imagine it’s mostly the same for others. I think it could really depend on the work being done. And I don’t think pretty handwriting is always necessary. If you can read it, it should be enough.

Been comfortably cooped up with my gf for the weekend. Life’s been chill.

Hard to figure where to start. Been on just about every platform here and there with little special use for any of them. I have very bittersweet feelings about the Internet overall, relating mostly to what happens with information available to us. I’m not too filled in on the scope of the reddit drama, but I do really like the fediverse and always support efforts to have more autonomous means of social networking. Anyways, more about me: I’m almost four years into HRT and trying to keep a footing in writing. (I have four short poetry books and a sporadic blog under my belt so far.) So much is going on over the existence of people like me that it puts me in depressive stupors disabling me from finding the words for the feels. But I’m carrying on as best as a girl can. I’m almost always making notes for projects, so that’s something. Primary interests of mine are history, literature, free/open source technology, anarchist theory, pagan spirituality and pantheons, cannabis as a medicinal treatment (and politics relating to its complete legalization), horticulture, hiking, ecology and armed self-defense. I play a few PC games like the Half-Life series, The Elder Scrolls series, different shooters and RPGs, but I’m not as much of a massive gamer as my partner is. I mostly listen to crust punk / d-beat / grindcore / mincecore, very much identifying with that section of punk culture, but like most people I also listen to just about everything. Joy Division, Interpol, Killing Joke, Fields Of Nephilim, Sisters Of Mercy, She Past Away, In This Moment, Pixies, REM, Gillian Welch and Kossoy Sisters just to name some from my spotify. All that said, I hope this finds everyone well and that you all have an outstanding day :) Mastodon