It feels like the activity is partaking of me rather than the reverse

Thanks for giving me these words to describe the feeling so well. I don’t feel interested and passionate… I feel consumed and dominated.

Now that I think about it, lots of words that describe focus have etymologies that feel appropriately sinister. Captivated, enthralled, enraptured, fascinated, bewitched, mesmerized, hooked - all related to being controlled against your will.

Man Tommy’s issues have issues

Bonus video– Ross Scott (“Freeman’s Mind”) actually plays the game that created the roblox oof: “Messiah,” a real, actual video’d game about an angel baby who possesses the bodies of soldiers and mutants in a cyberpunk conspiracy.

Ross’s Game Dungeon: Messiah | Accursed Farms [55:39] (game starts at 04:15, after the intro)

Same. Finding an instance with the best community or matching interests felt silly when everything is changing quickly and discovery is still underbaked. I went with Lemmy.world because they seemed like the most capable admins.