I have to go to a stupid Passover Seder tonight. I’m going to pretend to be schizophrenic so the rabbi and his wife don’t ask me too many questions. I’m going to tell them that I have a supercomputer controlling my mind and I can only say things that the supercomputer lets me say.

The trouble is that I can’t control it. Lies come out easier than the truth. It’s been this way since childhood. I don’t have a mask. I create new identities, and I need to collapse myself into one identity and stick with it, and part of that would be to stop the lying. I don’t want to destroy my relationships again. I’m so confused about where to turn.

Not so great, but at the time perfectly fine. Usually pretty okay. My psychologist told me that I have aspd but that what he considers me is a primary psychopath. It just doesn’t sound very good, and I like to manage what others see about me.

What is twitch?

Thanks.

I don’t really believe in talk therapy. Do you think it can help with the level of problems I might have? Do you think this warrants medication?

Well I guess I don’t.

Who should I get help from?

I thought gangstalking was real. You really think it isn’t?

Who should I get help from? Not sure where to turn?

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How do you know they are psychopaths?

Was there any physical stalking?