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Cake day: June 4th, 2023

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  • I feel a bit of both ways, on one hand, I love having a familiar universe that I can throws hours into and making it my sort of gaming home base (FFXIV). But when I play something else, I get nervous about them being huge or time demanding. I’ve been enjoying finding and binging through shorter games that I can knock out in a couple days, experiencing other worlds and stories, but not having to commit substantial life to them.

    There’s an amazing amount of trying to make games “worth it” by adding tons of side content, and my ADHD ass can’t ignore it…So when a game doesn’t do that, like Singularity, Remember Me, or even Alan Wake, I love it. A nice, linear, intentional story with none of the “help my farm from the rats” bs.



  • I wish I could come up with a reply that could properly state how thankful I am and how amazing and thorough of a response this is. Thank you so much for really pulling it apart and addressing each part of it.
    I will admit, that when I started my journey, it was because someone had told me “You really only need to know some HTML & CSS for a web job” and figured “I’ve done that since I was a kid in the days of PHPBB, this is my way out of [insert dead-end job].” Coding wasn’t ever my goal, so now that I’m in a career and living less stressfully, I’m thinking of trying it again from the mindset of a hobby.

    I love the idea of Rust, and I hear many people like it, and it seems much closer to the grindstone like you were talking about. I’ve started learning it a few times, but that was when it was newer and most of the training for it was for already-established developers, not for folks that were new to development, so it’d be neat to see what’s out there now. You can bet I’ll be doing some searching after this. I agree that the constantly moving nature of web development and having to treat each library as its own language was likely a large part of my downfall. I did aim to focus predominantly on Javascript since that was the core of all of it, but I still struggled quite a bit with that. I also got hooked on that C-based syntax, and struggled whenever I toyed with Python.

    You’ve inspired me, I want to try Rust again. I can’t say I’d heard of ADHD Shadowing, but I did some quick research, and I think once I have some learning under my belt here, that could really help when actually trying to sit down and write code out.
    Also, who’s the madman that decided to make a language without looping or re-assignable variables? lol

    Thank you for being the encouragement that I needed, helping me through what things I could be doing better, and pointing out what kinds of concepts I should be prioritizing to gain a fuller understanding. I see a pretty full course at https://www.programiz.com/rust that I’m thinking I’m going to start going through from the ground up and see if I can take a new perspective on coding with.

    If I could ask one more question of you…
    When I last programmed anything, I determined that I did not enjoy it, that it was frustrating, and that I just wanted it to work. I want to shift my perspective and see it in a new light. Would you mind telling me what aspects of it that you like and what keeps you going when it is frustrating?

    Thank you again for everything ♥



  • That’s so kind of you!
    I started by aiming for front-end web dev. I learned HTML & CSS (I know, we’re not PROGRAMMING yet). At the time, that’s all I was hearing it’d take to get into the role. Then it was “you should probably know some Javascript,” and I wasn’t ready for how big of a jump that was. By the time I started understanding it, it became “learn jQuery,” which I learned and used for a couple of small websites, then came the libraries…
    “AngularJS is the future” well now I need to learn Git, compiling, CMD…
    ReactJS starts becoming a thing and I say “seriously? I’ve learned enough of these things, quit moving the goalpost, React isn’t going to stick around”
    Yeah…it definitely stuck around…but as an Open Source nerd, I got super excited by VueJS and started learning that. No jobs in that apparently, aaaand I no longer want to do web dev, especially since I never reached the point of enjoying coding, it was always a means to an end.

    So there were two major issues for me: \

    1. I never focused on one language enough to truly LEARN to code, it was a constant sense of “I’m not keeping up”. I may be able to write the syntax, I might know the basics about functions, vars, and looping, but never really got using it in a super practical sense other than to try a couple of personal challenging projects that my ADHD arse couldn’t ever stick with. \
    2. Me and coding speak and think very differently. Stick with me here, I know, it’s a language, but the way something should be written and formatted are different from how I think it should be, and this is a very hard one to explain to folks. The best example I can give is that I might say like (and this is a poor example because remember, I don’t code and I’m not doing any active coding projects) \

    var person = { userInput }
    var num;
    
    function findNumberOfLetters (person) {
        num = length(person);
    }
    function response(person, num) {
        findNumberOfLetters(person);
        console.log("Hello " + person + "! Did you know that your name has " + num + " letters in it? Numbers are rad!");
    }
    


    I’m sure I did things wrong, but again, this is just for the sake of example. So, I write something like this thinking that it’s nicely structured and easy to read, and inevitably won’t work. I pass this to a friend, and the answer seems to always be a less structured, more nested code. So for this example, something like \


    (function response(userInput) {
        console.log("Hello " + userInput + "! Did you know that your name has " + length(userInput) + " letters in it? Numbers are rad!");
    })
    


    Obviously their answer is shorter and this isn’t exactly a complicated program, but for some reason, making the thing that provides a response to the user to do any of the logic feels wrong and messy to me. It’s a really hard thing to explain, I hope this makes some amount of sense, but I just process things very differently than code does, and it just ends up really incompatible. I’ll beat my head for weeks over-complicating something because I want it to “be clean” only for someone I know to come up with something that actually works within seconds.
    This isn’t to compare my skills against them, it’s to say that I’m thinking about it wrong, I’m organizing it wrong.
    That said, knowing how code functions has helped me to know enough to be dangerous and apply it in other ways, such as building Azure Logic Apps to manage ticket intake, or building alert monitoring. So it’s come in very handy in its own way, I just don’t have to competency to actually make any contributions to Open Source projects, especially since I don’t write in two of the coolest languages that I wish I could learn: Python and Rust.

    No pity party here, I love what I do and I don’t intend to change careers to coding, but I do end up feeling helpless in the face of instances like this where I wish so badly to contribute to a project that I care so strongly about and want to see thrive. I know there’s other ways to contribute, such as providing graphics, UI, documentation, financial, hosting, etc. but coding always seems to be the most in need to keep up with demand, and with more and more projects coming out all the time, the more programmers are in need to see them through.













  • I want to like SearX, but I just haven’t gotten any great results from it so far, and I’m not really impressed by anything that just spits out Bing results (looking at you DDG).
    you.com gives excellent results, but I’m not sure how much I should be trusting them.
    Brave search has gotten MUCH better and I use that pretty on the daily now. I keep seeing good things about Kagi from our Lemmy friends here, thinking I should give that a shot