Finn here, hello! I saw Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds at Pori Jazz 2018. They were the last act of the day, starting a bit after midnight, I believe. Cave remarked something along these lines:

“It’s the middle of the night & I can see everyone clearly. This is fucking horrifying.”

“Won’t have to pay if I get rid of the block function. It’s not harassment if everyone’s being harassed!”

-lil musky, probably

Henlo, I am Gigagoblin! 30’s, neurospicy, non-binary, queer. Kinda over all the labels, honestly, just trying to exist. I’m very low-energy & social situations make me spill spaghetti everywhere, but it’s easier to connect online! I kinda have huge trouble getting started on things, as well as finishing them & my interests come & go. That said, I’m into writing (poetry & lyrics, mostly), music, movies (especially horror!), cyberpunk, fantasy, spooky things & Digimon. There are manga & anime I enjoy, but I’m not like, obsessed with the mediums. I also enjoy all kinds of gaming, but it’s hard to commit when your brain can suddenly decide The Thing is no longer sparking joy.

Essentially, I’m trying my best in the framework I was given. I know I’ve treated people poorly in the past due to my own pain. It’s easy to take it out on others when you’re miserable & without hope. Thing is though, I’m also a parent to the most wonderful child & I need to be the kind of person she deserves.

It turns out I’m better off without the people I’d been hanging out with for 15 years, but it also means I’m basically friendless at this point. I don’t usually mind the solitude, but sometimes the silence becomes deafening. I guess it’s because it’s no longer really a choice? Anyway, looking forward to chatting with people here! Apologies if I’m immediately coming across as super depressing, I seem to always be “going through some stuff” & I’d rather paint an honest picture of myself!

Super stressed out, honestly. It sucks a lot, because dad & I took my offspring to a cabin trip & all I can think about is my current situation. I don’t wanna go too deep into it, but I’m having trouble with my place of care. Not sure about the correct terminology in English, but basically, I’ve filed a complaint & am awaiting their response.

That said, I’ve been enjoying Beehaw a lot & I’d like to wish everyone a wonderful rest of the week!