I blame society for telling me to use drugs. I went along with it to fit in. I don’t care about fitting in anymore, but I don’t think it was my fault for partaking given the social atmosphere. So why do I have to suffer these dreams that torment me about it? Do I have unresolved trauma related to it or some shit?
PS. I am straight edge now, I haven’t used drugs in a long time and don’t think about them while I’m awake at all. I prefer to be sober minded. The only part they play in my life is in occasional dreams apparently, which are usually negative and unpleasant.
I have a brother in law who is a therapist, and whenever the subject of finding meaning in dreams comes up, his response is basically: we don’t know what it means, and it’s probably not worth your time to overanalyze it. This is especially true if the dream is a one-off out of the blue. Repetition of the same dream or dream theme might indicate a larger emotional or mental situation, but it might not.